A night to be thankful

Absolutely beautiful night for sitting on the porch, listening to the Tigers and doing some journaling. The frogs and crickets are serenading me. It’s early August, not too hot, and I’d be happy to sit here for many, many days.

A beautiful night on the porch

The house behind me is pretty quiet – I can hear Max and Maggie playing a game together in the basement, laughing quietly and enjoying time together. Another few weeks and they’ll be heading out, back to college, and I’ll miss the sounds of them laughing…. or fighting, or singing, or all of the sounds I’ve gotten used to hearing again since they moved back in waaaaay back in March, when the pandemic was just starting and we weren’t sure how long the interruptions would be. Of course I’ll be worried about them, and I still hate that they’re going, but they have leases on apartments, and most of their classes will be online, and so I have to trust they’ll be okay. Ugh.

Jeanne went to sleep a little early, she had a long, busy day. Some exciting things happening for her that’ll be announced soon enough. Yesterday evening the four of us took the dogs for a nice walk as the sun was setting, walking around the neighborhood. We were laughing, watching FlipFlop pull Max on his skateboard (which he LOVES to do!), and Sneakers was pulling on Maggie because she wanted to chase them… as we followed behind Jeanne said “Aw man… we aren’t going to get many more nights like these” and I knew she was right. The kids will be moving out soon, and who knows when or even if they’ll move back in. Sneakers is not doing well – she’s almost 16 and had a good life, but probably won’t be with us much longer, so we’re really trying to enjoy the time we have with her now. Even if you take the pandemic out of the equation, the constant shifting of sand beneath our feet will be bringing us to a new place again soon.

Can we take the pandemic out of the equation? I mean, all we can do is be as careful as possible, and wait. Wear our masks, wash our hands, Hope people do their best, and hope for a vaccine. And do our best to manage the change that keeps coming as time drifts on, gently dragging us along (and sometimes not gently at all).

Thing is, every time I can remember thinking “Aw man, this is the end of an era” in our family, or with friends, later I also found myself having nights like last night, or tonight, once again, where I wound up thinking “This is beautiful. I’m a lucky, lucky man.” So, even though everything is so up in the air right now, I have faith that as much as I love tonight, I’ll have more moments like this again in the future. Hopefully I’ll remember to take the time to recognize them.

For now, though, I’m going to enjoy the back-and-forth of this ridiculous ball game as the Tigers keep finding ways to give away the lead, and listen to the frogs and crickets reminding me to just breathe, and savor.

4 thoughts on “A night to be thankful

  1. Oh, Sweet Tony, you so often fill my heart and soul with emotion. Joy, empathy, nostalgia…. All the basic needs and desires of life parade past as I read your pieces….and, joining along is the wish I were beside you sharing your moments and parading my own. Thank you for coloring these challenging days for me.

  2. I am so thankful that you too see the good things that came from these uncertain times, and that is family and friends. In so many ways, we find ourselves so rushed to get this done or that and we then find that another ten years went by and we say what happened? As fearful as I am as the school starts back up in a few weeks, I am extremely grateful for the time that I have spent at home with my family and the reaching (via Zoom, phone, and or emails) out to my friends as well. Simply put, let us take from what we are currently experiencing and be sure to take the time, each day, to reflect upon our relationships with our family and friends and come to the realization of how blessed we all actually are, and may that bring you joy. Lastly, thank you, Tony, for sharing with us your family and your thoughts.

    1. Dana, thanks for sharing! You’re very right, this time has been such a challenge, but a very good moment for reflection and exploration of our relationships, patterns and blessings!

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