Things are good here at Caselli World Headquarters… which is what I’m calling our house, as of about a sentence ago. Tomorrow is a day of surgery for me – an outpatient procedure, I’m getting a fistula in my arm. (It’s a procedure needed for dialysis, creating more of a permanent place for the IV). It’s a little weird, going back to the hospital, but it should be a smooth, straight-forward event.
“Go back?” he thought. “No good at all! Go sideways? Impossible! Go forward? Only thing to do! On we go!” So up he got, and trotted along with his little sword held in front of him and one hand feeling the wall, and his heart all of a patter and a pitter.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Hobbit
Going in for this procedure is a good sign, in one way: I’m healthy enough to handle it without too much worry. That makes me feel good, knowing that my rehab and recovery is moving along. I’ve also been able to sit in on some great callback auditions at Williamston Theatre, and it’s felt nice to slowly start having a presence there again. We’ve got some fun things coming up there, I’m really blessed to have a job that I’m excited to get back to.
It’s funny – I’m really still processing all of the things that happened from January to now, still absorbing how perspectives have changed, how some goals feel like they need re-examining, things like that. That includes work, of course, but also personal life goals, plans for the distant future as well as the right-around-the-corner. Embracing change – defining it, exploring possibilities – remembering that auto-pilot is no way to go through the world, these are the things that feel like they’re coming into focus. What will that mean exactly? I don’t know yet. It feels like Jeanne and I are just now starting to slow down and recover from the whirlwind of craziness, and as that happens we can breathe and gather our strength. I know I’m a lucky man to have the wife and children I have, and I know that this experience has (unsurprisingly, I suppose) reminded me that there’s no time to waste in squeezing everything you can out of life.
“It’s a wonderful world. You can’t go backwards. You’re always moving forward. It’s the wonderful part about life. And that’s terrific.“– Harvey Fierstein
So, as summer is beginning, and kids are getting out of school, and I’m gaining my strength and going in for a quick surgical procedure, life is good. I can’t wait to see where we go next!