Some of that is because I didn’t feel like using this site to complain about health issues, and some is, well, I guess that’s really the reason! The last few weeks have been a challenge, though, and I feel like it’s worth writing about.
Just after Christmas, I was hit by another bout of breathing issues, (wheezing, coughing, bronchospasm, fever, chills, shortness of breath) which knocked me flat on my behind for a while and, unfortunately, kept me there more or less since then. I’ve had better and worse days, and managed to fit in a fair amount of work, but the last two weeks have been particularly hard. I’ve felt sort of like this:
Well, I guess I haven’t felt exactly like that, since that’s a fictitional gnome hurling rainbows. I pretty much just wanted to use that image, because no matter how lousy I’m feeling it cheers me up a little.
(And the video of it is even funnier, if you’re interested!)
My doctors, thankfully, are working diligently with me and I am eternally grateful for the awesomeness of my wife, kids and co-workers who have helped me.
It’s very hard for me to lay on the couch taking medicines wondering why I can’t breathe and not be doing something at the theatre. I dunno, I’m a little bit of a control freak, I like to make sure things are happening, but I also love my job. At the same time, if I’m not there I feel like I’m letting people down. Thankfully, my friends at the theatre can certainly run the thing without me for a while. If that wasn’t the case, we would’ve been doing something wrong these last 8 years. But at the same time, I don’t like feeling useless, or like I’m putting the burden of what I should be doing to earn my paycheck on everyone else.
Still, the lesson here is “When your doctor tells you to rest, and your wife tells you to rest, and your coworkers and friends tell you to rest… You should shut up and rest.”
So, I will. And I’ll be grateful for the amazing people and opportunities in my life… and I’ll hope that the cure to whatever this medical mystery tour I’ve been on the last year presents itself soon.
In the meantime, everybody have a great start to 2014, and take care of your health! 🙂